Having such a hard time letting go of my life. Letting it go to Him. WHY why why why. Thought i was already over this stage.
I feel attracted to 'black sheep'
4:41 PMHow amazing is God!
He has amazing timing I must say. He knew that i wouldn't be able to attend any church services till I was back in Brunei. I believe He has spoken to me through a normal Sunday service and Passion. These past few days have been absolutely amazing.
How could I have ever denied Him.
So yes, I was looking for a new church to settle in last Sunday. The speaker started going on about being a light for Jesus. That there are people out there who yet don't know about Jesus, we have to be little light bulbs shining for Him. He made me realize that there was no point in being a light for Jesus, in those places where there was already light, and that we had to go into darkness so our light is seen. Expanding out social circles so we are able to reach out for those who don’t know about Jesus. However, there were those doubts again of being rejected..
This is where Passion comes in..
My first ever Christian Conference! I was so pumped up for the event, I didn't know what to expected but anything to do with God was going to be awesome! I was going to worship God! Oh man I love worshiping God. Praising and singing to him with 2,000 other people! It was like we’re One Body of Christ! Amazing is He.
So when Matt Redman came up and did a song ‘You Never Let Go’, it all clicked.
A few lyrics from the song
Even when I’m caught in the middle of the storm of this life
I won’t turn back
I know You are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?
Oh, no, You never let go
This song really stood out for me. And you know I finally got it! I mean I’ve heard it a million times but it suddenly just clicked. Something exploded in me, and that night I just wanted to tell someone about Jesus. You know we go around to our friends telling them ‘oh did you know blha blha did something today blah blah’. Why don’t we go around saying, ‘God has been wonderful to me today, would you like to know what he did??’ God deserves to be talked about! People should know what good things he has done in our lives. It doesn’t matter if I get rejected by people, my God will never leave me.
There are so many people out there who are missing out on so much.
I know I‘m not the best person to get along with nor do I have the best personality. I have troubles too, I’m not perfect. I don’t think I’m better than anyone else. But at the end of the day, I have peace with God. He will always find a way, because nothing is impossible with my God!
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