WUA. My dear friend Von is going to Kenya today! :(
ehh i will miss you :( I have no one to kacau these holidays. Okay maybe i do, like Elizar but she might be busy with her booger. I WILL MISS YOU BANYAK BANYAK. You be careful on the mountain okay. Especially in those boots! HAHAHA. They dont look so bad la, just teasing you. I wish you could take pictures, want to see the sunset and sunrise. EY BEWARE OF THE GUERRILLAS OKAY. No wandering off alone, always hold the teachers hand, if you need to pee somewhere let someone know. I dont understand how you can be so excited about climbing a friking mountain and not showering for 5 days. But oh well, i wish i could come and help build the school too!! Sounds so fun :( Take care my very smelly friend.
Oh yea i forgot to mention,
IM FREE. HAHA IM FREE WEEEHEEE
I just finished my exam on Monday, from then on ive been going out with different people, its been good :) Im happy. Very happy. Monday night, went to the Art Exhibition, and darn my earring rack was there. I wish it wasn't I sorta regret making it. Then i was super hungry so we went to eat Thai food. Im so addicted to Thai food man, Coconut Tom Yam soup and Mango Fish yummm. Im having it again tonight when i go out with Sheep and Funky Monkey :D hee (aka Nikki and Sharon)
We dropped by Idas house on Monday. My co-pilot Shieuh Lin was excellent :P Cause this immature person started chucking paper balls at me in my car :P Ahem i wont mention any names. *coughvoncough* Was so funny. Laughing so much over there.
Had an excellent dinner at Zaika with the Student Council and Mr Pluck's groovy 70s disco/toilet tile/table cloth shirt. Hee hee
For lunch yesterday had RMS burgers!! Ah me and Von were craving for burgers. And we were so proud of ourselves for picking RMS because the burgers were on half price =O We were quite excited. But Tracy's burgers are still the best :) Was good seeing Ms. Chung again, and hearing that very loud laugh and receiving never ending cracks about me being a man and my hair :P Toreshi too! And her shuffle!! HAHA trying to do it at Charles and Keith :P But was good to see everyone again.
Yea ive sorta gone off sushi, had it last night. Was good, enjoyed the dinner and company, then i got dragged into a movie, but its okay i enjoyed the movie and i made him drive cause i did not want to park in Gaydong. PayDay! When is someone going to realise that there is not enough car park space in Gaydong? And build a multi storey car park thing.
Life is good :) going out for lunch with momsy. Shes already making noise that Im hardly at home. Gosh what do you expect with someone who can drive and has no school :| Been driving everywhere haha. MY COUSIN IS BACK. OO i was so happy i rushed back home after lunch yesterday. Still cute, but chubbier and bigger.
Labels: friends, life
10:25 AMSo what am I doing up this late? Just got back from church and started revising my music notes again. Wagner. Pretty intense heavy stuff man. No joke. The sacrifice we musicians have to make. -_- WHY. WHY MUSIC.
cause im good at it. I guess you usually love doing something when your good at it.
Then i got distracted cause Ming Ding a Ling started chatting to me, always showing me the emoticon of this fat kid jiggling his fats about.
Gross. About coming down to KB, he says i have to bring KB money haha. Hai everytime i think of KB reminds me of Shirley la. HAHA. Its never going to die man. I will be telling my grandkids this story bout what Aunt Shirley said. Then this Ming said he dont 'friend' me anymore cause i dont intend on watching 24 :P yea i know people say its really good, but lazy to watch also. Korean series are probably the worst to watch. They are just tooo friking long, with good bits every now and then but still it takes ages to finish one episode so i get bored really fast.
Just A Reply to Tags:
Cassy; arww thanks *hugs* that really helped :) God made me, I should be happy with myself and what he gave me. Heh im just waiting for my fringe to grow out :P People making smart comments already -_- heh but its okays..at least i have hair.
Tracy; OH YEA YOUR BACK :D HEE HO HA. We can go driving around Brunei with our face masks now ;D Sheesh and our kids wont hate each other, but i tell you, you gotta watch out for Lis' kids okay :P HEE HEE. Might be rebels. noh la im jk.
Becky; Man i cant rave anymore, my head hurts. Lol thanks :P
Sharonz; FUNKY MONKEY :P Where your BF?? HAHA
Ron; MR CHENG =O I did not expect that from you!! YOURE MEAN! ...dont you have a fringe too...just not one thats so obvious like mine :P
Con; Haha yea i hope you enjoyed that night :)
jD;...YOU AH. >=(
Daph; hehe dont you just want to dance to it.
Ting; hehe where you working? I dont think i have time anymore, too much going on before i leave.
Jess; hehe thanks you :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D
LadyR; ehhe yes i did ;P Exams totally over for you! I still have Music -_-
Sarah; AHH YES YOUR COMING BACK. Finally Sunday lunches again!! hehe i miss those times!
11:41 PMThanks to all the people who have tagged and said i was pretty lol :P but i wasnt saying i was ugly okay :P Saying gorgeous to yourself every morning just gives you that extra boost. lol you know deep down inside you feel like you cant do anything and you feel useless. But all is good. I love my God
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much. *sigh* makes me feel all warm and fuzzy anyways, im late for a party, a little kids party to be exact. JUN JUN. I havent eaten my lunch so yea im going there for food :P hah hah PIG. Ill tell you all bout camp when i get back, eventhough i only went for one day. It was still a loada fun :)2:16 PMDont worry, put all Trust in Him.
Im feeling rather reluctant to go later. I know whats probably going to happen, and i hope i dont get freaked out. But i understand now. I want to be able to have a closer connection wtih Him, in order for this to happen, i got to get through with this. If i dont, ill never get through life because i dont have Him.
I hope I get to go to Notts. I want to go to Notts.
9:02 AMOkay so i just got back from my exams. 3 papers in one day, one after another. Not fun. So my maths paper, the paper im meant to do super duper good at. I didnt finish it. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me. I mean i did okay, but i dont know if its enough you know. So like yea, dont be suprised if i come back to Brunei and dont end up going to Nottingham anymore.
Im not a very optimistic person. I like to think of the worse. I have no confidence in myself. I always put myself down and its like extreme. I need to love myself more. You know, its like i need to have someone love me to love myself, so i know that im actually worth something. Not a good thing.
I just need to wake up every morning, stare at myself for a good 5 minutes, staring into those big brown eyes and tell myself
'gorgeous'. Im going to get through the day, Im going to get through life. You know i cant wait to have babies :) Well im not looking forward to the giving birth part. Ive already chosen names. For my girls; Sophie, Hailey, Zowie. For my boys; Luke, Wyatt?, Cole, Cooper. Hrm but the guys names im not sure, havetn found any nice ones that i really like. But Luke is a definite tho.
Ill be fine, i always look like i am anyway. 11:30 PMoh rar rar rar.
I have my C3 maths exam later at 8 -_- bleh why does it have to be so late. Hopefully ill get at least a B for this paper :( i need it! Bleh i just want to get these exams over and done with. Exam time is always the loneliest, everyones studying and busy. I actually start missing people who i never thought i would be missing. Soon ill be free and stress free..for a while i guess. BUT STILL ahh :) people say uni life is so much better. I bet its pretty much the same as now. But maybe its cause you have more freedom. Hrm maybe after all my exams are done, i wanna work part time somewhere. I dont know what. Maybe something with little kids. I would teach music but i dont know who would employ me ><>=)
Bah i should jus go my laptop batt is running low and too lazy to run all the way upstairs.
I know, running up those stairs is like being in a marathon up Mount Wanahokalugee. I need to exercise, i think one of the reasons why i feel so dead and slumpish is because i havent been doing any exercise. I need to start being alive and fresh.
Like veggies.I have one and a half hours left whoopi deee.
Sorry i havent replied to tags..I will soon :) heh heh
Labels: exams, random
4:16 PMThe Wreckers - Stand Still And Look Pretty
I want to paint my face
and pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up
I don't even wanna look at myself
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
And you might think its easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty
Sometimes I find myself shaking
in the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can'teven believe this is my life
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go an shut their mouth
I'm not strong enough to deal with it
4:10 PMIf only You knew..that in secret...i miss You terribly..
but..i know You wouldnt feel the same way..
11:25 PMI
Shouldn't
Have
Gone
To
Get
A
Fringe..
1:37 PMARGHH i hate exams!!
They make me put on weight. Cause i always eat when im studying. :( I have an even bigger tummy than before..ive also made some fatty friends..two of them actually. Their names are Fat Sally and Sue. They live under my arms, one on my left and the other on my right.
Okay yes im taking a break, after realising that nothing is getting stuck in my head after rewriting it 20 times over. Yes that is how i study, rewriting every single thing about 5 to 10 times over. DARN. Why couldnt i be like those people who read things once over and its like embedded in their minds for all enternity.
So what has keep me sane all these nights.
Yes ive been watching them till bout 1 in the morning every night. Excellent way to end a very unproductive day. I love Hyde haha hes so funky. But hes 31 you know!! Gosh. Too old. But i still like. And he has Myspace too! dont really know if thats the real him, But hes 31 and i think he has a girlfriend :(
hrm sometimes i wish i was wild and crazy like some people. Kinda gets me down that im a pretty boring person most of the time, especially when you meet me for the first time, i dont make a very good first impression. Hrm someone told me to be spontaneous the other day, kinda feeling down that i wish i was more fun. Yes especially since that person also said we were 'boring', i didnt react to the situation cause i was so blur, i did not know wat was going on. Yes i wish i was a little more hyper and open. Ah booger, i dont know who i am.
Labels: exams, random, rants
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